If I call you up at 2 a.m. and I'm feeling fucked and lonely again

I know you wouldn't be cruel you'd just sit there and listen

If I cried said I'm terrified

That I'm getting close to the day I'd die

You'd just shake and you'd tell me to go home

And it's true that I'm probably not worth the battery life

Why do you still stick around or let me stay the night?

I couldn't figure it out if you wrote it all down

Please write down

How do you love me right now?

How do you love me right now?

I make all the jokes

And run from the cracks that are visible only to you react

With a long breath and worried eyes that justify

When I haven't heard a thing you've said

'Cause I've been talking about the sounds in my head

I never asked once about you or how you've been

And it's no surprise that my friends are harder and harder to come by

That look in your eyes

Shows I've made it about it me like I do every time

I need to figure it out write it all down so I don't forget how

How do you love me right now?

How do you love me right now?

I wouldn't love me right now

How do you love me right now?

Narcissistic paranoia

That just means that I annoy ya

And the contacts on my phone are really more than I know

And the ones I want to talk to are usually busy and at home

Suicidal kamikaze becomes less charming as I'm talking

I'm trying to see why you pick up when it's me

How do you, how do you, how do you

How do you love me right now?

How do you love me right now?

How do you love me?

Maybe I should just stay inside

Stop calling my friends about how hard I try

Maybe that's another reason why

I don't understand how you let me inside

How, how do you love me?

How do you love me?

I want to love me

Do you love me right?

If I call you up at 2 a.m. when I'm feeling fucked and lonely again

I know you wouldn't be cruel you'd just sit there and listen